healthy phatz is where it's at 🙌🏻 pre farmers market + workout fuel of 1/2 @barelybread
cinnamon raisin bagel topped with chive @kitehillcheese
cream cheese, avocado, scottish smoked wild caught salmon, and micro basil. these past few days i've been making a conscious effort to CHEW my food more thoroughly per my functional health doctor's recommendation. this can help us naturally ease digestive woes like bloating after eating. and let me tell you... shiz is hard! but when i do remember, i feel SO much better after finishing my meal. definitely something I want to continue to work on. happy happy happy sunday 🌿
I love everything about self love and body positivity. I want to be more involved with that community, as well as the weight loss community. But it's hard to be a part of both. Why? Because I, like many of you, didn't start losing weight because I wanted to. I was severely made fun of, constantly. When the people you love, and the people who you think are your friends call you fat... that's when you want to change.
I didn't start losing weight the healthy way. Long story short, I starved myself. And I became very sick and very weak. But quickly dropped below 200 lbs finally. It took me 2 years to learn how to properly take care of my body. And I didn't do it for myself. I did it so the people around me would stop calling me a fatass and making fun of the people around me for being around me.
It's hard for me to be a part of both communities because I still have a hard time with loving myself. I find flaws in myself everyday that stand out, and a lot of the time I want to give up because my stomach isn't flat and my thighs still touch. I have cellulite for days... despite losing 70 lbs. Yes, I am proud of how much I've accomplished, and yes I do realize that I have a lot to love about myself. I know that. But for those of you who've gone through that kind of bullying, you know how hard it is. I try everyday to find the good in the world, and in myself. My best advice to those of you who are in the same boat as me, find someone who can be there to support you. Whether is a random person in the online community or your hubby or your 3rd cousin that you haven't seen in 15 years or someone with the same struggles as you. Find someone who, no matter what, will unconditionally support you. Not someone who is going support you when it's convenient for them. Trust me, it helps a lot. You are beautiful, and capable of anything. You just have to believe that, to achieve it.