|| I got too many things stuck. My brain doesn't give a fuck. I cant breathe. My mind keeps playing tricks on me. It tells me what I want to hear. Developing into being insecure. Never going to live up to standards. If I was truly what I could be. I missed it all to some degree. I've said this before. Seen it all through open doors. I left one every where I went. Just to remember how time was spent. Even if it wasn't well. I knew it was just a spell. Of stupid insecurities. Wondering when I can finally see. Life isn't what its cracked up to be. Im a mess. Fake smiles. Too much shit rests heavy on my chest. I never go for what I want. Or even who I need. I see something beautiful. And just wonder when she'll leave. Ever met eyes with a stranger? To find out theyre even stranger. Than what you could have imagined. But those eyes burn with passion. They've seen the other side. They've realized all the lies. Just to find they're bad mistakes. Giving into all the fakes. Wanna see how many times a heart breaks? Theyre really quite the scam. Like a lions pretending to be a lamb. Written on every tooth. Of that pretty little grin. I cant help but giving in. To the rolling of the words. And shaking of the hands. Touching of the lips leads to a disproportioned glimpse. Of a night you cant forget. The time that was spent. If ever to hearts connected. Pleas be now and not then. Never forget whats in your head. Thoughts turn to voices coming out instead. I hate to says its true. But In a room full of people. There's really only you. ||
Random poetry. I just start writing and it just starts coming out. Honestly my most favorite way to just express so many thoughts and emotions. The picture suited it so well though.